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| It's a wonderful movie, not as good as the book though, but it's a beautiful beautiful story all the same.
Went to amanda's blog just now and saw this quote she wrote in a post.
“I know what I want, because I have it in my hands right now. You.”
- Gerry Kennedy, P.S I love you
Amazingly sweet. Everyone should have a chance to have their own Gerry in their lives, the way Gerry is in Holly's. Maybe not in the tragic way Gerry died, but the way their love grows into something that even words cannot describe, it can only be felt in the heart.
Okay enough about all the sappy romantic stuff or i'm gonna make myself feel bad over the whole story and Gerry's death and start getting emotional again.
Gonna head out to vivo in a bit with the family to get mummy's new year clothes, i'm wearing my hazel coloured contacts today haha. Oh btw, reunion dinner with mummy's side of the family ytd was good, food was quite nice too and Jadon and Kate, my two baby cousins, were supremely cute! <3
K off to prepare now byebye :)
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Today i saw a girl. A girl, who like me, was once broken and shattered but now back up, and happy.
And i'm very happy for her. For both of us. And for the ones who made us happy again.
To Person 1: Thanks for reminding me how lucky i am.
To Person 2: Thanks for being the one who helped me along the way and helped us to become what we are today :)
I'm a lucky lucky girl. | | |
| Haven been here in ages. But anw, work's been going fine and i somehow have come to quite like my work. Well at least, i don't mind it, and i'm quite surprised because i was always damn resistant to the idea of an office job. It's not as mundane as i thought la, but the com screen gets a bit glaring aft a while sometimes.
New year's coming, so fast omg.
Daddy brought home super nice pineapple tarts the other day i love them, and i love my muji marshmallows that Weichong bought for me :) Damn awesome omg. I wanna try the other kinds of marshmallows they have, they have rather cool foodstuff.
My aircon's blowing hot air nooooo :(
Idk what to blog leh i thought i had a lot of things to blog but nothing's coming to me right now.
K i shall stop here. BYEBYE.
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| Today is a bad day, mostly because of the ride home from work.
Stupidly left my pouch with all my cards in daddy's car so i had to buy an ezlink card home. Didn't wanna take the bus cause it's too crowded and my period came and i was having cramps. Legs hurt, back ached, tummy cramped, and people all arnd me making my head spin, what could go worse?
I always knew i hated being alone among a crowd esp in enclosed spaces, and mrt and buses are considered enclosed spaces to me. It suffocates me, makes me feel exceptionally vulnerable. But today was the first time i felt it so deeply so horribly and so badly. I felt like the whole journey home my heart kept crying out silent pleas of help and for someone to save me and make everything go away. The feeling sucks. Felt so much like crying on the way home, then people will probably think what's that crazy girl doing crying in a crowded train. I hate it. I really really hate it. I hate this feeling. It's like i'm scared of smth that i don't even know what it is. I only know it scares me. The feeling of being so small and vulnerable. I don't even know how to explain it and no one will understand when i try to anw. My whole life, people tell me i'm emotional and sensitive and i agree totally, so people will just tell me that i'm oversensitive again. That's not what i wanna hear. I want comfort, and the feeling to just go away. Somewhere in me i know it may never go away. So i'm just waiting for smth to happen, but until then i don't know what i'm waiting for.
So i just wait here, in all my fear and insecurity and paranoia.
I hope smth changes soon, i'm tired of feeling this, tired of feeling like everyone can hurt me with the flick of their finger. I just need one person to tell me, to convince me of smth that can make me feel better. Just one, even one will make the difference.
Thank you for talking to me the entire journey home. I still feel bad but i know if you were not talking to me i would have felt worse.
I realise. I believe that the world is good and nice but I only believe it when it doesn't happen near me. Then i'll wish for it to happen and when it seems like it does, i don't believe it because for some reason, i have a pre-set idea in my mind that people are out to hurt me somehow. One way or another i will get hurt and destroyed inside and i think i'm developing some sort of bipolar disorder shit.
Okay i'm not making sense anymore so i'm gonna stop. | | |
| I found a job! :) Working at Raffles Hospital right now in the Insurance Claims Dept. I must say, it's quite a new experience but a fun one as well. My colleagues are nice and friendly and my first day went well too.
Headed off to Astons at cathay to join the grads lg for dinner. Dinner was quite good too, enjoyed sharing stories about our work and all.
My digestive system has died once again nowadays i'm getting the runs like they're free.
Everytime i eat slightly more or heaty stuff, tada :( upset.
Combined service tmr! Hope it'll be really exciting :)
K i'm going to watch my huan zhu ge ge now byebye | | |
| Today was, a rather interesting day for what was supposed to be a boring day.
Went to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve for a brisk walk in the morning with the parents after sending Jaron off to school. Yeah i woke up at 6 in the first time for a very long time. Anw the morning air was really good i loved it, and i didn't even sweat at all. :)
I think i'm weird cause while walking on the steep part of the slope (when i was going up and coming down), i kept visualising someone falling and then start rolling down the hill so i kept laughing. Daddy was like "YA you will be the first one" lol. THANKS DADDY THANKS AH.
Had breakfast over at the bukit timah food centre and headed home where i slacked for a while before clearing up the vcd/cd cupboard with mummy.
AND i spent over an hr calling up various sec schs to apply for a post for relief teaching, damn sian i'm so frustrated but anw i'm alr looking into other jobs as well so yeah :) Please let me get one by this week or next please please >< I don't even mind office jobs now, just not mundaane things like data entry I WILL DIE I'M NOT KIDDING. I'm planning to work until at least june leh, data entry for 5-6 months is nonsense.
Went for a swim in the evening and it was pretty refreshing, except for this annoying group of little boys who kept throwing this ball arnd the entire pool so they kept interrupting my swim by cutting into my path pft.
In an extremely pissed off mood right now. Regarding my job search. Bloody hell bloody hell. Just had like almost an hr's worth of lecture about what is a worthy job for me to do and what is a good job attitude and all that stuff. Srsly i shld just go be a waitress but apparently it's not a good learning experience. Okay i'm ranting la i don't really wanna be a waitress again i wanna try smth new but srsly.
With all due respect, FML.
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